You know that feeling…It varies from person to person. It might be that you feel sluggish. You could feel annoyed. Maybe you aren’t sleeping well, or maybe you just feel funky. But something is off or out of kilter.
You feel “meh.”
But what if…
What if that feeling, that “ugh,” that thing that is causing you stress or making you frustrated, is really God’s way of giving you a gentle shove in the direction you need to go?
Sometimes you need a push.
It’s easy to get lazy. To live in the comfort zone. To feel “safe” even if feeling “safe” doesn’t make you feel happy.
Maybe when you feel out of sorts it is because you need to get back on track.
I’d been feeling a little “meh.” Was I doing anything about it? No. Was I talking it out, writing it out, thinking it through? No. I hadn’t been doing a gosh darn thing besides trying to make it go away like some kind of pesky bug.
But then… I got a shove in the right direction!
I haven’t been able to sleep for the past two nights.
On Tuesday, I was awakened at 3 am to the not so quiet sounds of my neighbors. And not happy neighbors. Neighbors yelling, fighting, shouting, swearing. I jumped to awareness when a fist slammed into the wall next to the bed.
And I live in a good, safe building, mind you.
I had trouble falling back to sleep. I had that feeling that my day “got off on the wrong foot.” I tried to complain to my building’s management company and couldn’t get a person on the phone.
Finally, after running didn’t even make me feel like my normal peppy self, I did what used to be a regular habit. I decided to turn to meditation. And guess what? That worked. I felt more normal than ever after a good period of meditation followed by prayer.
This morning, once again, I was awakened to even worse sounds from next door. A party was going at 5 am and continued well into my breakfast before work. Not only was the party loud, but I realized my entire bedroom smelled like pot. Not exactly the best way to start a work day. Again, I tried to complain to my building management company–and my complaint’s fell on deaf ears.
So I did what I needed to do to re-ground, re-center, and re-energize me.
I meditated. I journaled. I prayed. And now, I’m sharing my story.
I had lost contact with my meditation. I had lost contact with my writing. I had lost contact with one of the most important ways I make a difference with my life–meditation, yoga, and inspiring others to lead a life filled with joy and purpose.
But now, after my neighbors, I am getting back on the right track.
It feels good.
I just needed the neighbors. The neighbors helped push me into action. Push me in the right direction…
I realize that I have so much potential that I haven’t been utilizing. And it’s time to start using the potential and listening and trusting God. And I’m going to make sure to make time for more yoga, more meditation, more learning, more prayer, more creativity, more helping others. Because that makes me feel energized and not drained. That makes me happier and feel fuller. And it’s good for me too.
Because the better ME I can be, the better ME I can offer to the world.
Are you being your fullest you? Are there signs trying to push you in the right direction? Can you open up and allow yourself to BE yourself?
When the “mehs” hit, trust that they mean something. Listen to them. Know that everything happens for a reason…how can you turn the “meh” into mesmerizing? From “meh” to saying to yourself, hey it’s time to get back in touch with the real ME?
What do you think?