It’s okay to go slow
So I went for my first post-asthma attack/allergic reaction real run this weekend.
I was feeling optimistic. After all, my last run pre-illness included this sighting:
Yep, a dolphin swam alongside me for a mile. It was so fun! (Dolphins also swim fast and love to play.) It also created an enormous amount of enthusiasm for running outside along the water while I can.
Needless to say, I was feeling anxious and ready to get back on the pavement!
I started to run.
And I could feel it was oh so slow.
First a pair of men passed me.
I was okay with that, they looked to be doing around 7 minute miles.
Then a man with a stroller passed me. Okay, I thought, maybe I’m going a little slower than normal.
Then, a pair of teenage girls passed me.
And then there were more!
It was so humbling.
I usually run between an 8 to 9:30 minute mile, depending on the distance involved. When I got home I realized my run ended up being around 10:30 to the 11:00 minute mark.
And that was A-OK.
I was happy to be out, to be able to breathe. It was my first run after being VERY unhealthy. I needed to take pause and be okay with where I was and how I was feeling–which was finally better–instead of letting my ego get in the way.
It’s so easy for us to get caught up our heads, in what we want to happen, and what has happened in the past. Going slower wasn’t failure, it was actually a victory. A victory that I was able to get out there and run and feel good. A victory that I could inhale and exhale safely. Instead of getting discouraged, I should have rejoiced.
And so I did.
I let go the ego. I let go the wants and the have beens. I let in the now and accepted exactly where I was. With Joy.
And I’m grateful to be back in my running shoes….And my speed will return in time.
Do you have trouble accepting where you are? How do you let go of the ego and let in the good stuff about every situation?