Being me is hard to do! (But Imma gonna do it!)
I encourage you all ALL the time, to be your most authentic selves. To do you. To chase your dreams.
But it’s been really hard for ME to do that all the time.
For the majority of my life I spent my time trying to have everybody like me. I wanted to be liked.
I wanted to be liked so badly that I:
- Wasn’t present
- Wasn’t authentic
- Felt fearful ALL the time
- Felt exhausted ALL the time
- Tried TOO HARD and cared TOO MUCH about making everybody else happy
Guess what? When I tried to be what I thought everybody wanted. When I tried to be liked by everyone. When I put on that show.
It didn’t work.
My real friends, my real relationships–those came with the people where I *didn’t* try so hard. Where I could be messy. Where I could be quiet and calm. Where I could just be me.
Would I go back in time and tell my younger self to snap out of it? To care less? To let down my guard? No.
Because I do believe that everything unfolds as it’s meant to, in the precise way that it’s mean to and in the exact timing that it is meant to.
My yoga friend shared this quote with me from a fellow Yoga Teacher yesterday when I took her class, it really hit home for me this week:
I have tried too hard for nearly my entire life. That has gotten me some great successes, but it has also cost me more than I ever realized. And now I am truly ready to ride the waves of life. To show up just being me. It may not mean that I’m so peppy, or that everybody likes me, but it means that *I* will like me and I will like the path that unfolds for me.
I don’t know what it will look like or where this path will take me, but I’m excited.
Thank you all for being a part of this journey. I hope my own quest to live an authentic life will help all of you to be more you and to make this world just a teensy bit better.