Stop Rowing the Boat
“You need not leave your room. Remain sitting at your table and listen. You need not even listen, simply wait. You need not even wait, just learn to become quiet, and still, and solitary. The world will freely offer itself to you to be unmasked. It has no choice, it will roll in ecstasy at your feet.”
— Franz Kafka
Why is it so hard for us to stop going going going…gone?!
We know it’s good for us, but we can’t seem to do it.
One half our mind goes “yes, that’s what I need.” And then the other half and the body run the opposite way, like a little kid with his hands over his ears screaming “No no no!!!”
We do everything in our power to NOT let go.
And I’m changing.
I’m giving in to doing… nothing.
I am going to be the passenger in my own canoe and, for once in my life, let the waves carry me down.
I am going to get down with the silence of just being.
It doesn’t mean I’m going to become a doormat. I am just going to pause, listen, and see what the silence tells me to do.
It started in my yoga class this week. I taught and ooey gooey restorative yoga workshop with props:
|Supported balasana (child’s pose) with blankets and bolster. YUMMMMMMY!|
And as I read the Franz Kafka quote at the top of this post, I had a HOLY CRAP moment!
LIGHT BULB MOMENT!
Although I was instructing my students to let go, I was holding on like crazy.
I talk a big talk about letting go, but I don’t really do it.
I love to be in control.
I sometimes get frustrated, cranky, or annoyed when I am not.
And that has got to stop.
My mind has been keeping me from letting go to the beauty of life. To finding a new journey. To seeing new landscapes. To trying what hasn’t been tried before.
Being present and aware is one thing. But letting go in the present is another thing entirely.
And I am giving it a shot.
I am putting down my metaphorical oars.
For the next while (maybe forever?!?), I am going to let the waters of life take me where they will. Let others pick up the oars for me when needed. Trust to the unknown.
It’s gonna be okay.
But y’all, letting go and trusting the flow is awfully scary.
Do you want to try it with me?
|Supported viparina karani (legs up the wall) with bolster, blanket, and strap around thighs.|